SONG :GRIEF

                                                             SONG  : GRIEF
                                     WRITTEN - 21 JAN 2012 ,2 AM

        Restless , deep inside me,Too hard even for me to realise  that I'm clumpsy outward
        I plan order and schedule myself but it didn't work

                    Some moments, some flashes of emotion probing events bring up ,my longing
      for you to  the surface,from from the abyss of my soul

                    Hard to  believe, you hold me so long and tight .Why wouldn't you let me go?
      I'm done baby .I'm done
          
            
               I make every point so logical enough to prove  you wrong .All my fellow people
      judge you wrong and may be , you purposefully deceived  me. But my deepest soul painted
     white walls for you .It denies to accept that you are not the angel for its purity


                 

               I cover up myself,deny and develop disregard for you,in a fear of dying and intolerable
      pain that would un-earth if I realise my reasons for real
  
               Its all me, with that love for you,  constructed  so delicatetly and passionately,know its true
       nature.  I'm so blinded, even after the amount of slaughtering pain ,that you've put me through

             I still love you .I hate the fact that I love you.I hate to be myself ,in your context.
             I may be a loser in your eyes ,but I'm a triumphant soldier  in the trueness of unconditional
       love ,which is uncomparable or imperceptible unless experienced

           I hate you ,coz I love you so much.I hate myself for not hating you